Why do I feel so bloody extra everywhere I go?
It's like as though I don't belong anywhere.
Nowhere in particular.
I don't know why it's like I'll feel super lonely & extra when I go back for gatherings,
just like in the past.
Sometimes, it's not that I dont want to go back for meetups,
it's just that I'm scared the loneliness will loom all over again.
I always don't know anything that you people are talking about.
Nobody tells me secrets.
Nobody confides into me.
Nobody shares anything with me,
without having me to 'force' and 'promp' them to.
The relationship is drifting away further and further.
I thought we could remain the same way after we separate but seems not.
Everything seems impossible as time pasts.
It got so sad I was tearing while typing this damn post.
I FEEL LIKE I'M ONE PATHETIC ASS ALTOGETHER.